I was apprehensive on arrival at Ampleforth having not attended a residential retreat for over 25 years. I was also in turmoil with health-related concerns. How was I to continue my life’s journey in the shadow of uncertainty? The introductory caution that this was a time for exploring rather than achieving was hugely helpful.
Ampleforth Abbey provided a comfortable and quiet space to retreat. It has beautiful spacious grounds to wander through, secluded gardens and tranquil sheep pastures.
Each day is punctuated by the ‘offices’, short periods of chanted prayers, that mark the course of the monastery's day. In this sacred space, which was optional, I listened. My soul was awakened to the joy that comes from praise and thanksgiving. I was reassured from the psalms that it was OK to pour out my troubles to the Lord.
Alison Richards & Jacky Stride pointed us to scripture, (John 21), poetry, music, and writers, giving examples of individuals who sought to live full lives: “The Sycamore”, a poem by Wendell Berry, "I find your love" a song by Beth Nielsen Chapman, Howard Thurman's writings and Etty Hillesum's diaries... were some of what impacted me personally.
I came away comforted, encouraged and hopeful. I took a step towards learning to trust in the hope God’s grace and beauty brings; the smile on someone’s face, the kindness I receive, the gentle morning light, the birdsong, the whisper of the wind, the steadfastness of trees, the apple orchard packed with fruit, the distant horizon that seemed to beckon endless possibilities.
Cathy Moonman